36 Weeks

Here I am at 36 weeks, hoping to be done any day now. This is as far as I made it with Ruby and a week shy of my date with Jeffrey. It is hard not to anticipate being done. At my ultrasound appt. today they calculated him being 7lb 3oz. Thats plenty big in my book. Way bigger already than both Roo and Jeff. He certainly doesn't need the last 4 weeks to put on weight. I am tired of being nervous and worried, monitoring movement, hoping all is okay. I tend to really worry a lot here at the end. I worry the whole pregnancy, because pregnancy seems to make me extra worried, but at the end I am almost loony. When he isn't moving during his usual active times, I have a hard time staying calm.. it's amazing I haven't been in to the hospital several times a week to have him checked. I think I have gotten progressively worse with each pregnancy. I am just ready to hold my baby safe in my arms.... I am starting to dread the thought of delivery though. I have been crazy enough to do my past 2 pitocin labors naturally. I just don't know if I have a 3rd in me. They are pretty rough. I guess I will just have to see what the circumstances are when I get there. If I go full term, he will be over 9 pounds and they are suggesting a c-section. I am hoping I can avoid that by having him this next week or two. I am trying to fill my days with fun activities so I don't obsess to much about being done. I am trying to just enjoy what will probably be the last few weeks of pregnancy that I ever go through. It really is a special time, preparing and looking forward to the sweet joy a new baby brings.

Friday Baby #3

I had my two week checkup today with the specialist. I am really glad they didn't do an extensive ultrasound. I mentally can't handle being told he is huge right now. The tech tried for awhile to get a good picture for me, but like usual he was not having anything to do with it. I think he really hates ultrasounds. The second they start he has his hands and feet all in his face, blocking. He even looks like he is scowling a little. If you look close in the 3D pic, his cheeks are huge. His one cheek is practically hanging over his arm. Most of his birth weight will be just his cheeks. He must be a Godsey baby.

Friday Baby #2

Here are the most recent pictures of him from my ultrasound yesterday, ya know, the one that made me fear I would be birthing a 10lb baby. He sure is cute. He has a sweet full lower lip. I can't wait to kiss his little face. And in person he will be much cuter because he will actually have eyes. Ultrasound pictures are always a little creepy when they don't have eyes. He continues to grow and be healthy. His heart looks great and everything suggests that he will be a healthy baby. Now we just have to get through the many long weeks left until we get to meet him in person.

29 weeks

I think this will be my last post with a belly picture. I am getting ridiculously big and no one really needs to see that. Normally I am this big at the end when I am ready to deliver. I am 11 weeks prematurely big this time around. I am super worried this baby is going to be giant. I have never had a baby bigger than 6lbs, so I am very concerned. From the ultrasound I had yesterday they are guessing he is already 4lbs, 15 inches, and in the 87th percentile. I am starting to think I don't like being monitored so closely and could really do without this information. If I deliver 3 weeks early like I did last time, he should still be on the small side. But if I am unlucky enough to go full term, he could be enormous. I will just have to wait and see. I hate this waiting. I am an awful pregnant person!

27 weeks

I hate these pictures of myself. Now I know why I have no pregnancy pictures from my previous pregnancies. I am not sure why am I am torturing myself. But I am. So here it is. This is 27 weeks. I am starting the third trimester. I am only gonna get bigger from here. Wish me luck! I feel like this belly couldn't possibly keep stretching any bigger.

Friday Baby

This still isn't a very good picture, but what can I say. He is very shy when they start doing an ultrasound. He just refuses to cooperate. If you can decipher this picture, it's a sort of side profile shot with his face between his two arms. It's really tough to see. But even if the picture is bad, he sure is a cutie to me. Everything is still going well. I am getting really tired of Dr. appointments. Both the midwife and the specialist want to see me every two weeks. Without children. It's a pain. Hopefully this last trimester will go by quickly and smoothly. Not too quick though, I still don't have a name.

Carbs

I am really craving carbs right now. Cold cereal, toast, muffins, fruit. I don't want any meat. I am worried about my weight, so I am at least trying to make them healthy carbs. I made some great whole wheat banana blueberry muffins this morning. The only problem is, I ate 4 of them. Aaaah! It's a lost cause.